so tonight terrell and i are gonna drink a little
. it's his night off so we're just gonna chill together (cuz at night i miss him so
bad) and i am just loving
it. especially when he gets all cuddly with me + kisses
my forehead.. i just feel very loved
by him right now. and maybe he's become a bit more sensitive, now that he's seeing that the ED is more
than we all initially thought.. but whatever it is, i thank God for his love
one thing i will say is that i am ready
to be married. i am 26 years old, with two children. i am ready
for him to ask me to be his wife. i told him we could do our own wedding
and it wouldn't cost all that much. maybe a few hundred (not include dress+tux, etc) or we could even get married at the courthouse (outside of it is very pretty
+ there is a gazebo and such) or something just to keep it simple. i always wanted a big
fabulous wedding but i'm being realistic
now, and i don't have parents to pay for a wedding, so i just need to do what i can. and that's okay with me
in february we are moving out of our apartment. our lease runs up.. and i hate
it here so i gotta go. it's like these people tell you when you can and can't wipe your own ass. my neighbor is a stupid psycho
bitch who likes to peek out her miniblinds and then come outside like 'can you guys please tell the people walking by to be quiet?'
like wtf do i look like, the guardian of Riverside??
like seriously she is lame as hell and she's part of the reason i want out of here. the other part is just the ghetto-ness and that people have no
respect + don't know how to act. ugh so we're starting to look for houses. hope all goes well.
anyway.. not a whole whole lot to say tonight. i'm gonna go get tipsy with my baby
and maybe go to bed early tonight (early bedtime means no bingeing!!
) sooooo goodnight
my lj friends <3
me + my bay